In a few weeks I will head to my very last Kindergarten orientation. Clearly my kids aren’t all raised and out of the house yet, but I feel a very real shift happening in my days as a stay at home mom of young children. Next year there will be no children in my home for the majority of the day. While there are so many wonderful and amazing things about that transition I must admit a bit of sadness at no longer playing the same role.
Obviously when I was in it- knee deep in diapers, tantrums, lack of sleep, the list goes on and on- I felt completely incompetent. But I can stand on the other side and say that I think I did a pretty good job. I now have school aged children who, for the most part (because GOD KNOWS they have their moments) are capable, respectful, and delightful children. As I butt up against the teen years I still feel like I am making a mess of things quite regularly, but I can look back on the small people years and say we survived and we more often than not, thrived.
I am staring down the next chapter of my life and having to decide what I want to be when I grow up. I am still a mom 100% and in some ways my kids need me more now than they did when they were little. But it is time for me to re-enter the workforce, help provide for our kid’s tuition and figure out what I want to be when I grow up. Gulp.
Things are falling into place and new ventures are being explored but can I confess that it is terrifying? I feel like I am that woman being wheeled out of the hospital with a new baby in her arms all over again- looking around saying, “Wait, what? I’m expected to do this on my own? Who told you I was an adult?!!” I had a job I loved before I had kids, but I now find myself feeling completely incompetent about my abilities after stepping away for the last 12 years.
This week I got to take a sneak peek at a new Netflix original called The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt. It stars Ellie Kemper, one of my favorites from The Office and Bridesmaids and Jane Krakowski, one of my favorites from 30 Rock and Ally McBeal. It was created by Tina Fey so you know it is going to be awesome. And it really is.
Kimmy emerges from a bunker where she was kept as part of a cult for the last 15 years (don’t worry about anything offensive knocking religion, so far there has been none of that). She decides to give life a go in NYC completely naive about the realities of the world and the big city that wants to eat her up and spit her out. Her relentlessly upbeat attitude could be annoying but I found it totally inspiring and of course the show is hilarious.
I feel a bit like I am emerging from a bunker of 12 years of parenting wee ones. Life has gone on while I have been up to my ears in Dora the Explorer and Superheros. I am rediscovering a bit of who I am apart from my role as a mom and while a bit terrifying, it is also quite exciting. I’m tinkering with hobbies, exploring new friendships and looking into starting a new career. I can kind of be anyone I want to be again.
The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt is a Netflix original launching on Netflix TODAY, March 6th. In honor of Kimmy and her inspiring unbreakable spirit, I am spending the next few days on social media sharing my favorite inspiring quotes about being unbreakable. I need some hand holding as I figure out my future and so might you. So make sure to follow me on Facebook and Twitter. Also make sure to check out Kimmy on Netflix this weekend. The perfect show to bring some sunshine into this chilly weather. And the perfect girl to inspire us all as we take on the world.
Disclosure: I am a member of the Netflix Stream Team and was given early access to the show, but was not required to blog about it in any way. I thought you might enjoy the show and am passing on the information :)