They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. Which I hope is the case because I have been mostly absent from this blog.
I just couldn’t blog about it but for a few weeks the depression and anxiety started winning again. It was so discouraging because for nearly a year I had managed it and was even getting to some new version of normal which pretty closely resembled the me from before.
So this hit me like a ton of bricks and kind of knocked the wind out from under me. Well that and the whole depression and anxiety thing which leaves me not wanting to get out of bed and crying for hours at nothing at all. Basically I was a delight.
At one point my amazing supportive hubby came home with flowers and said, “I just wanted to do something. I feel so helpless.” My only response was “Join the club.”
Because I felt incredibly helpless as well. Overtaken by a darkness I fought against, but then again the irony about depression is that you barely feel like fighting it.
I woke up Saturday morning with the immediate recognition that something had shifted. I had “myself” back. And although it has been several days where I have felt more or less “normal” I am struggling to find my footing again. I am just kind of waiting for the routine of school to start again.
So I will be real hit or miss around these parts until that happens. I have a few sponsored posts to fulfill and frankly I am grateful because it gives me something to write about instead of staring at a cursor for an hour until I finally shut my computer and call it a night.
Thanks to the 4 readers who have stuck with me. I hope to be back soon.